Wednesday, October 15, 2008

The Dream Council

In the last few days, I've become interested in dream interpretation. It started with a conversation with a local teacher of metaphysics. She was knowledgeable and helpful with the questions I asked regarding the Law of Attraction and the Power of Now. Our interpretations matched for the most part, then the conversation steered into a direction in which I had no reference point: dreams.

For the better part of the last 10 years, and maybe longer than that, I have rarely been able to recall my dreams. If I had to tie it to a particular instance, I would have to say it was when I stopped journaling my dreams. Back in the days when I was writing fiction, I used a dream journal to get some ideas from my subconscious. At that time, I thought of the subconscious as merely a wellspring of ideas that could get my writing career started.

And it worked. I had a few things published based on my dream journal and had tons more just sitting there waiting to be written that I never got around to. There is a tinge of regret there thinking that I should have pursued those writings because I have since lost those journals. However there is larger feeling of loss I get from not having those journals: what was I trying to say to myself?

In the conversations with the metaphysics teacher, she mentioned that dreams are trying to tell you something. What were my dreams trying to tell me then and what would that guidance lead to now? It would be interesting to see where my mind was then and where it is presently, now that I have begun this journey into beingness.

Those dream journals were quite full, too, because of my obstructive sleep apnea. Suffering from that condition all those years and not admitting it to myself, I had become quite comfortable with waking up all the time at night. I had justified it to myself (at the time, my ego) as a means to continue to fill up my dream journals. Obstructive sleep apnea, for the record, is a condition in which you stop breathing at night because there is tissue in your breathing passages that close down and do not allow air to flow. You wake up briefly because your brain senses an emergency, but you don't wake up fully so you never know you were awake, but your body never fully rests either. And about once an hour, because my body never entered rest mode, I'd have to get up to visit the bathroom and I took that time to journal before dropping off again.

Now that my from of sleep apnea is treated (there are others) with a CPAP machine (I can go into detail on that in another post), I don't wake up until my alarm goes off because I'm getting real sleep. However my friend did give me a strategy that I can use to start to recall my dreams by just saying to myself before bed that I will remember my dreams. It won't automatically enable me to remember my dreams from the entire night just yet, but this morning I did get up and remember that in my last dream before waking, it involved the slogan "winners never cheat" and Yeardly Smith (actress and the voice of Lisa Simpson) was smiling at me.

I don't know if that's enough to interpret, but it's a start.

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