Monday, November 24, 2008

Edward Weston, Jeff Curto and Me

I'm sitting in the library with a book about Edward Weston in front of me. For those that don't know, I am a both a photographer and a student of photography and find the subject of both photographers and their photographs fascinating. Every moment I can study someones work drives me to discover the next photographer.

I'm also listening to a podcast on the history of photography by Jeff Curto. He teaches a course at the College of DuPage in Illinois and he's a fascinating listen because you can tell he knows his stuff and remains passionate about it. It was Mr. Curto that put me on to my current fascination with artists from the early to mid twentieth century time period and I am appreciative of it. In fact, during my morning gratitude "vibing," his podcast remains another blessing that I am grateful for.

With a book of Weston's photographs on this table, I am seeing the American West through his eyes and through the essays in the book I am getting clues as to who he was as a person and how his life was incredibly complicated.

There are allusions to his "lover" Charis Wilson as well as a few nudes of her in the sand dunes. The point is not that the book contains a few nude photographs, but rather the passion at which Weston pursued his interests. There will be those who read that Wilson was nude and immediately want the book removed from the library.

However, things like that didn't appear to matter to Weston. He pursued his artist vision, and made his vision a reality. It is a lesson to me as I continue to manifest the events around me. Weston became the photographer he wanted to be because that is what he wanted to be.

At this point, I am not the photographer I want to be because I have let things get in the way. I have blocked my blessing, as it were, by letting it happen and, by letting it happen, attracting more distraction to myself.

The Law of Attraction is very clear on the topic of being distinctive. The Universe will give you what you want, but you must be specific about what you want. The more drilled down on what you are manifesting, the more you get what you want.

For example, I was manifesting the idea of myself being a "good photographer." Does that mean I am a good photographer. It can, but photographer of what? A good photographer of lint in my pocket from my camera phone? If that's the case, how does that serve my real desire? By wanting to be a "good photographer," did the Universe grant that as my gift? Is that what I really wanted? And if not, how was the Universe supposed to know?

You can have your desires, but unless you ask specifically for what you want, how is the Universe ever supposed to give it to you?

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